Whining red whine

Loser losing.... yet again!

Usual day - or make that night - at work.... Gawd! Me needs real, normal, preferably-not-graveyard-shift job! Help, anyone?

Torn between a million different things. Torn, torn, torn... i can't stress that enough. Torn! So i'm dazed, confused, lost in indecision ... what have you... it's all me. Hahay! I'm still waddling through this murk murkiness of a dirty, agedly stagnant puddle of dirt.

Anyhow.

I need permanent cheer-me-up fix! Urgent. Please hurry.

Storytellers

I was aimlessly wandering through sites when it stuck me I want to read stories. So I googled my way and look what I found.

This is a perfect avenue to drift. It takes my mind off to a grand escapade! and not just stare blankly in space while trying to wait for the shift's end. And the variety is akin to the broadest of spectrums.....all the known shades of hues.

My, my, my ... talk about an addition to my day's dose folder. lol.

~~~for the record~~~

I'm sooo emerged in stories of all kinds right now, that it feels like I've encountered a lot of interesting people with different points of view, with a mixture events happening to them that spells excitement. Fact is, my present life phase is kindof cyclic i.e, work-sleep-work or argue-makeup-argue... So much for my story, I'm too sleepy to whine.

So I'll browse from story after story... chuckle, be teary-eyed, be dazzled, be enlightened, feel uplifted until I can read my own story that's presently unfolding in the background of life's everyday drone.

Listen...

when you said forever,
you meant a few months.
when I said forever,
I meant every day until I die.
when you said always,
you meant until you couldn't handle it longer
when I said always, I meant until time ends.
when you said you loved me,
you meant I was no different from any other girl.
when I said I loved you,
I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

.... mushy stuff entry # 1

TGFWS

Thank God for white sugar!!! At last there's finally white sugar in duh houz ... after months and months of the brown stuff they claim as "healthy sugar". I still managed to get sick though, and I swear I won't get away with diabetes when I turn forty.... it's in the genes. Yeah.

So.

I'm super activated today - what with crunching all the tech stuff I can down. I'm thinking it's the Stresstabs...

Anyway.

How's this for the next succeeding days of my life:


Source: football, brushstrokes, et al

Really, I need to jog, run, jog again. I'm getting to be a lazy slob - 49% and loading... So when I stumbled upon this I thought this should be my life for now. Put the other two on hold. One of them being mindless munching.

So I bought ....... tadaaaa!! ....... sweatpants. But I don't have a jacket to match it. Heck! lol. I'll post a pic if my outfit is complete. Which made me think "when??" .... uh-uh i'm not going there. C'mon a little support here, I'm trying to be fit :p

On the other hand, job is starting to disrupt and destroy my sleep pattern. I can sleep for 12 hours and still feel like I need to be on hibey mode for another five minutes. And another five minutes equals 2 hours. Ugh! help... Snatch those tabs real quick.

movowvah!

Wel, well, well.

Love is in the air indeed and I'm seeing hearts -instead of stars! Thank God I'm still in one piece after I nearly fell from my bike this morning! My eyes are huge swirls of hearts now. Why? Surprise, surprise! Googling my way to my fave hobby (finding ebooks) took me to the site where I found titles I have been searching for ages!! This is so, so, so boofabulous!!! I can kiss all my ex-boyfriends again! Shoooot!

...of course, I was kiddin hun..! =)

Spare me sappy Nicholas Sparks titles which talked about notebooks and ruptured hymens. I am talking about these:




Yep! Stephanie Meyer bah-beh!

Actually I saw the first title, Twilight, held by some love-gooed teen's hands and I told myself then: "That is some ass-kickin, freaky poetic art cover!!" And I was lusting for it. Of course, back then I can't eat anything but black coffee, pastry and apple. Ooooohhh.... theeeyapple!!

So now I have it in MSReader. Not just one book but the complete series, i.e the three of 'em! ...of course I'm not bragging hehehe. If you want the files call me, pm me, put a comment or sumthin, hollah a' me!

Plus there's the Gaiman collection (as in almost ALL, if not all) in my fingertips ready for download, but nah, I figured I'll save the chore for later - except one, just one!! Again, if you want these lemme know...

Screw love day. I've got some reading to do.

Ooops! I was lying.. hehe.

Happy <3's Day everyone!!!

CCT Ends

It took too long for it to sink in. Until now, the words are still hollow as if their souls were lost, lingering in uncertainty.

Yet it was certain! - as far as Charles would maintain. He was our trainer, after all. The master of our training destiny, the commander of our mission. He was the one to decide what our fate will be. Begone to hell or stay for the next level.

All of us were to stay.

..............................................................yehey!..............................................................

I wished for that - at the second floor where we downed costless meals and watched cigarette smoke linger or shoot in aerial rays. I wished and it came true. I have the talent, I should wish more often.

Dirty Little Secret

"Every profound spirit needs a mask: even more, around every profound spirit a mask is continually growing." -Friedrich Nietzsche

I came across this site and I thought it's tremendously worthy of mention. Not only is this a great avenue of catching a glimpse of another person's innermost core but it also makes you think about your own secrets, longings, thoughts, fantasies, frustrations, happiness and unhappiness....kinda makes you look in the eye that person staring back at you in the mirror...

Now I know what inspired that music video of The All-American Rejects.